Finding Your Voice

Almost anything makes me laugh. I laugh in most situations, sometimes that's good and sometimes it's not, but that's how I am. I think most things are funny - irony, tragedy, stupid humor, random accidents, awkward situations...they're all really funny to me. I don't cry very often, but when I do it means that something is really wrong or that I just watched a sappy movie. People wouldn't know that I cry at all though because I hate being emotional in front of other people. I am a pretty open person, but I only open up about really important things to people I feel extremely comfortable around. I like almost everyone I meet and am open with all of my friends, but I only share serious feelings with my very closest friends. 

I tell the people I love that I love them. If I'm very comfortable with them I tell them why. 

Usually trivial things that happen throughout my day keep me up at night. I run through things that I did during the day, things I should have done, things I want to do tomorrow, etc. Sometimes I get caught up on things if I think I handled a situation poorly, or I get nervous if I have something important to do the next day and I imagine all of the possible scenarios that could happen. 

I know that I'm usually confused about things and that I have a very hard time making decisions. I also know that I think about how others are feeling a lot, maybe even too much, and that I love being around people to an extent and then once I reach my threshold I need to be by myself for a while. I think that people who are mean for no reason are evil. Holding negative opinions about people without any substantiation behind those opinions is evil too. Actually, that might just be ignorant but either way it's a bad thing. The most beautiful thing to me is nature. Being somewhere where I can't hear anything man made is really nice and that is my favorite place to be. I don't like crowded places or places with lots of ambient city noise. I'd rather be anywhere outside by myself or with some friends but removed from society. 

I respect passion in others. I really like talking to people when I can tell that they are passionate about anything. It makes me want to find something that I am absolutely obsessed with so I can be that passionate about something too. 

People excite my curiosity. I love to learn about people, where they come from and what they like to do because I feel like I can understand their actions better when I know more about their backgrounds. I feel way more comfortable around people that I know a lot about. I am very interested in how people work and why people behave the way they do.

If I were the ruler of the world the first thing I would do would be to say hi to everyone. I don't like the idea of being famous at all, or having that much power, but I would do something where everyone could see me and I could introduce myself. Then I would go and visit as many places as I could before I died. Speaking of death, I'd like to travel a ton before I die. I would also like to have a family and a husband that love me a lot and that I love a lot. I also want to find something I'm really passionate about and do something about it or with that so that I can feel like I made some sort of positive impact on something.